| Someone I know has died.
We were not friends. We were not enemies. We got along at times. He was an associate of mine. I was his supervisor. I did not like him much, but he certainly shaped up after a talking to. People are devastated, as death always seems to do.
I can't help but think about death. How they found him. (he died of a brain aneurism) Who found him. What he was thinking before he died. But mostly, how will I die?
I had a dream once were I was stabbed multiple times and the only thing I could think of was "So this is how I die?"
I know now that's most likely what I'll think when I am on the verge of death.
Then I wonder what unfortunate person has to find my lifeless body. Will it be a car accident or body malfunction? Cancer or stray bullet? How will people act when they find out? What will they do with my body? Will I be young or old? Today or tomorrow?
Death brings so many things into my head that I don't normally think about.
No one I know should be allowed to die, until I am dead. Then I won't have to deal with it. |
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| Firstly I wanna say the books were ok. Not terrible, I've read worse, but not fantastic. I read all of them and in the beginning and I actually liked the books.
People died and I fell in looooove with Jacob. I fucking hated Edward from the beginning. Same with Bella. Whiney stupid bitch.
What I haaaaattteeddd about the books were mainly how it ended. Too happy. No one died! What. The. Fuck. I need tragedy in a fucking vampire novel! No one even got hurt. I FORCED myself to finish that book. Forced! I didn't even want to it was so horribly written.
Talk about writing. As I read through this book I found it written like those Jack and Jill books. You know: "See Jack Run. Run Jack run. "
I need something to stimulate my brain!
I don't think it counts as even a literary challenge because of the way its written. Which can be ok in some books and writers, because I can still get through it and be interested.
Now onto the movie.
Terrible acting.
If on ANY level you think that acting was acceptable, I feel so insanely sorry for you. But then again, you'll always be entertained by shit. So a win for you, I guess.
I saw this movie in theaters and could NOT stop laughing at how ridiculous it is. No one in this movie was attractive, besides Emmett.
Now on to the folklore. I liked the whole werewolf aspect. It was interesting how the pack would become one when they're in wolf form.
Now for vampires. Have any of you read any Anne Rice novels? Majority of you probably don't even know who Anne Rice is or that she is one of the most well known vampire novelists. Waaaay before Stephenishit.
Vampires cannot have sex. They are dead. They have no blood. How can you have an erection with no blood? Sure you're like rock solid n shit but you can't feel anything. Yes vampires are VERY sexual beings. That's how they lure their prey in. That's how they let their preys guard down.
Prey. Yes humans are prey. Not things you let follow you around everywhere you go.
And they sure as fucking hell don't sparkle!
That was clever for about 2 seconds. And then I thought "disco ball". Never again.
All in all I have NO understanding as to why little teen girls are obsessing over this.
Why they think Edward is even slightly attractive, or what they call "Hot. Sexy. Or desirable".
Why you'd want an 180 year old virgin prude to be your husband.
And why the fuck are they still supporting this vile.
Can anyone tell me one legitimate reason as to why Twilight is even remotely entertaining? |
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| So we just bought this wooden cage for one of our snakes that keeps escaping. He's currently loose in our new place and its been a day or two and we still haven't found him. We're not too worried. I'm sure we'll find him sooner or later.
We're driving home and b asks: "How much do you think he spends making these things?" (Referring to the wooden cage) Me: "nothing. He grows his own wood. " B: "what?! Really?.....shut up.... " Me: " hahahahaha!" B: "he doesn't grow his own wood." Me: "hahahahahahha...." B: "....." Me: "-snickers-" B: "well, every man can grow his own wood." Me: "what!? Hahahahahahaha!!!"
I love our ridiculousness. :)
We're watching Star Trek tonight! :D |
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| Its not rape if you yell surprise. Then its just surprise sex.
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| When I was a kid I was a bully.
I didn't run around beating kids up for their lunch money, but I might as well have been the same thing.
I once made a little girl eat dirt. I've had more than one parent come and tell me to stay away from their kid. I even had one mom tell me I was the reason her kid didn't come to Sunday School any more. I was terrible.
I'm sure the reasons I was a bully were close, if not the same as most bullies. Troubles at home, no father figure, abusive mother, yadda yadda....
Don't think this was a one sided batle. I had equal, if not more kids calling me names and isolating me. That's how I learned to defend myself, by fighting back.
Its funny how those kids who harass you the most do everything they can to isolate you, but when they're alone they're semi nice to you. One of my bullies, yes this bully had bullies, did a lot of things to make me feel like shit, but when his friends weren't there we actually got a long. But since I was the girl you weren't supposed to talk to as soon as his friends came along he started back up again.
I would never bully anyone who didn't bully me. I never went out of my way to purposely hurt anyone. Majority of my bullying was in self defense.
I never had true friends. I was one of those tag alongs, the one people pitied, the poor kid, and the annoying one. No one went out of their way to invite me to things or showed up to my birthday parties.
Did I care? Not really. I found things to do and people to meet.
When I got into high school I found friends that treated me bad. Just the same as I've always had, but these 'friends' actually made me cry. So I ditched them and found some real friends, but all those feelings my previous 'friends' had, kept me at distance. So I soon alienated them and found new friends and drifted.
Still got harassed by people, about everything. Rumors got spread that I was a lesbian and that I'd had threesomes. Which shocked me because I kept my V card till I was 19 and well out of school.
I've learned that people are cruel. But they're also hurt and damaged, just as much as I am, maybe even more.
I never take anything anyone says about me seriously. I often laugh about what people say about me.
I've never started a rumor in my life that wasn't a joke between the people I was talking about.
I don't pick on people anymore. I tease every now and then for good fun, but everyone does that and I always say I am joking.
I'm a gentle giant now.
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